Trying my hardest to be civil in this uncivilised world.

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Cake day: April 26th, 2025

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  • Mmm, like not going down the rabbit hole, just letting the thought pass? I do that sometimes, when I know I’m gonna spiral out of control and lose it due to something small/nonexistent. I’ve gotten much more successful at it (thank God) but that’s still a struggle. It’s rare though, I’m very zen with everything and everyone besides my poor wife, although she’s acknowledged and appreciated the recent positive change! 🦾


  • But I like my mind active, it’s dynamic but peaceful! I remember back when I was in the army and I was on guard duty, I had to be static, vigilant and with no distractions for periods of 2h at a time and I just used that time to brainstorm builds in RPGs, or sing (I could sing for the whole 2h and the little guard post had great acoustics, lol), but it certainly felt like boredom torture at first. 😅

    If you consider yourself someone who meditates successfully, what benefits do you think you’ve gotten from it, personally? Just out of curiosity btw, because I feel like I might die without ever doing it, I’m not arguing or anything, lol.


  • Maybe, but I don’t think there are any thoughts I’m “not allowed to think”, that’s not how I live my life. Thoughts come up and I analyse them, believing myself intellectually competent enough to elucidate myself a bit, and emotionally competent enough to deal with the “final answer” of that train of thought. In much knowledge there’s much sorrow, yes, but personally I’d rather know than not know, almost always (can’t really make accurate predictions or plans with data I know is either false or incomplete, right?).



  • I never found the need nor the disposition to meditate but I can’t knock it since I’ve never actually tried it. I feel like my hyperactive and inattentive brain is allergic to it by default too, lol. The closest I ever get to what in my ignorance I can consider a “meditative mental space” is pacing around a room for hours thinking about things enthusiastically, a kind of flow-state in which time just flies by. 🤷